Sunday, March 20, 2005
after reading his message yesterday night, i cried in a way i havent for a really long time
i was sobbing so hard it hurt to talk, big gulps of air that chokes, tears streaming down my face
his words rang and rang inside my head
"good luck to your own agony,
i always believe we should fight for our own happiness.
love is great? No... love is selfish"then it came to a point where the alcohol drowned everything and i couldnt stop smiling, so i went to bed.
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my lifes in a total mess. yeah sure, im willing to lie to get out of it but the words wouldnt come out of my mouth
nevermind. i should just go back to the doctor later, maybe i can get a mc, come back home and pack my stuff, get ready for school..
i wonder why he gave me antibiotics last thurs for my cold. i think its now that i need the prescription for antibiotics.
good luck to your own agony
i always believe that we should fight for our own happiness
love is great? no... love is selfish
does it mean that i dont love you then? its not like i dont want you for myself, no, i just want you to be happy...
i hope you ll be happy with the gurl you like.. and i wish you both the best
i ll watch silently from a corner.
till time heals my broken heart, i ll always be praying for you...
xoxo
joce-lyn
10:42 AM
